All Mixed Up

Posted on Wednesday June 29th, 2022 @ 12:21am by Lieutenant Commander Niali Deval Dr & Lieutenant Finchley Kerr

Mission: New Worlds
Location: CMDR Kerr’s and Niali Korial’s quarters
Timeline: Current.

Niali only had a couple of appointments that afternoon and had been able to finish early. She had checked on Arle and Tor in the quarters they had been allocated and had stayed for a little while. She was enjoying catching up with her sister but she got the feeling that Tor did not like their interaction. Niali thought that he had had her to himself so long that having to share her was difficult for him so she was trying to allow it.

As she walked along the corridor she thought about Finchley. Now there was a new neural blocker in place it was as though the whole incident had disappeared and she had wondered how much he knew of what had happened to him. She entered their quarters to find him reading. Brutus was asleep on his tree having been fed by Finchley Niali had noted and decided to add a tick to the list she was keeping. She smiled as she poured herself a bloodwine donated by Karadis. Niali could not stop thinking about the Klingon warrior and how she felt about her. She looked at Finchley and knew she loved him more than anything else and could not see her future without him, she did not know however if he felt the same about her and was afraid to push him on the subject. “Do you want anything?” She asked holding her goblet up?”

Finchley looked at Niali and laughed "That depends on whether you're being rhetorical or not."

She smiled and leant over him on the couch putting her arms round his neck. She nipped his ear, “no, no ulterior motives just asking you if you want a drink, or, like the good nurse I am I could get you something to eat.” She laughed, “seriously I worry about you.”

‘I know you do Niali, and I love you more than words can say” Finchley replied “but I think there’s something else on your mind, you’re being way more over protective of me than usual, speak what’s on your mind, be honest with me.”

She sat down next to him. “What do you remember of the last few days?” She asked.

“I remember your promotion, then it’s a little sketchy, but there’s a couple of memories…you and Karadis being concerned about something, and a…promise, something about loving forever. Niali, what’s bothering you, you can be honest with me.”

“I know I can but, ..okay here goes. When Karadis and I found you you were very ill, I panicked and… well I promised her I would love her forever if she saved you, and she saved you so..so now she has brought it up a couple of times. To be honest I do love her, and want her but I love you more and I don’t know how to resolve this.” She finished her bloodwine and refilled her mug. “I think I am a little squiffy.” She chortled. “What should I do?”

“Niali, I love you, I hope you know that” Finchley replied “but I also know you have to follow your heart. If you feel that you need to be with Karadis and follow your desires, I won’t object. Hell there have been times, before we met, I wanted her myself.”

“I am following my heart and my heart is yours, I know you love me but I want a family one day and too settle down and I know your intelligence career means such a lot to you. I mean what if I was to tell you I was pregnant, what would you say to me?”

“I would say that I’ve given up Intelligence and would do whatever it takes for us to be together” Finchley replied “However, I think that as much as your heart is for me, your desire also lies with Karadis. I don’t blame you, she’s magnificent, and if you feel you need time with her, then that’s ok.”

She stood, “Finchley why do you keep trying to push us together, yes I desire her but I would not act on it unless the three of us were together, but she does not seem to want that, she wants me.” Niali poured herself another goblet of bloodwine.

“Niali, Karadis and I have worked together for more years than I care to remember” Finchley replied “I know she wants you, and if you want me there when you get together, I have no problem with that.”

“Finchley she wants more than just sex, she wants commitment which I cannot give her. Yes I want her, she is intoxicating, strong and beautiful and I feel danger when I am around her, but my life is with you.” She stood up and fell back down on the couch giggling. “I can’t even run away from you DAMN this bloodwine, DAMN you Finchley Kerr, DAMN this symbiont DAMN IT ALL TO HELL.”

“You have it wrong Niali” Finchley replied “What Karadis wants is the ‘here and now’, it’s all about fulfilling her desire of the moment Karadis lives for the moment, she’s Klingon, remember that, and I have no problem with that.’”

She began to whisper seemingly to herself. “I just do not know then, you are telling me to take her, to take what I desire, use her and cast her aside even if she loves me. I deserve it, I deserve what I desire.” Then she looked at him, “and If I was pregnant would you still tell me to take her?”

"No, if you were pregnant Niali, I would protect you, whatever it were to cost me" Finchley replied.

“Niali smiled, “thank you for that Finchley, I am just so conflicted, I mean I would not go with any male because I am now with you and it would be wrong so, why should it be any different with female?”

"I believe Karadis loves you but knows she can't be with you" Finchley replied "She be very happy having sex with you, but remember, it'll be very physical so you may have to restrain her."

“What’s a few broken limbs between lovers” she joked. Very well we shall see where it goes. I I’ll tell her how it is and give her the choice.”

"You should go and see her now" Finchley replied "better sooner than later."

“Why are you pushing Finchley?”

"Because subconsciously you keep bringing Karadis up and I think you want to do something about it to get it out of your system" Finchley replied "If you don't want to see her, or speak to her, then don't. I was only trying to help you, that's all."

Niali sighed, “problem is I work with her, I see her every day. Right then where are her quarters?”

"Deck three" Finchley replied, rising from his seat. He walked to the door and as it opened he said "To paraphrase Captain Oates 'I'm just going for a walk round the corridors, I may be gone for some time'..." and left.

Niali sighed, there was a lot going on with him, with both of them and she wondered that possibly love was not enough. She would not seek out Karadis and she would move herself and Brutus back to her quarters to give him space.


Lieutenant Commander Finchley Kerr
Executive Officer (now on LOA)
USS Oberon

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Lieutenant Niali Korial
Temp XO, Chief Counsellor
USS Oberon