“There is no evil angel but love.”

Posted on Monday September 12th, 2022 @ 7:23pm by Lieutenant Commander Niali Deval Dr

Second Officer’s Personal log.

What can I say. Sitting here in my quarters looking at these four walls I contemplate resigning my commission. Not only was I badly injured on our last mission I woke to find out the man I was in love with had gone, just vanished. No message, no letter or vid…just nothing.

Advised to rest by Dr Edgeware I moved out of our shared quarters as soon as I could. Puss seems glad to be back. I do not think he liked sharing me with anyone. Finchley told me he loved me well, as Shakespeare once said ‘ Love is a familiar. Love is a devil. There is no evil angel but love.” That damn man was my first lover although I was not his. He was so secretive about his former life until I became meshed with my symbiont’s life as a secret agent and let’s be honest a torturer. I cannot sleep as I try to think of reasons why he left how I could have done more, been better but he’s gone and I will not chase any man. I forswear men completely.

My body hurts interminably despite the dear doctors analgesic hypos and now the Captain has granted us shore leave. I have no idea whether to do, perhaps just cuddle up with Puss watch old Earth black and white movies and sip hot chocolate.

End personal log.